I went to church today. Before you write me off, I’d like to state that I go to church to cleanse myself from all that has occurred during the week (good and/or bad). I grew up in a Catholic home, but I wouldn’t consider myself a die-hard Catholic. I would rather identify myself as a follower of the “golden rule,” spiritual at best.
I remember as a child, I always looked forward to the homilies during mass; specifically what stories the priests would share. Now as an adult, I unfortunately find the homilies given are a bit lackluster. I know these priests have spent many years perfecting their lecturing skills, and I do not believe that’s the problem, but rather the content presided. I recall having a conversation with my brother (whom is an avid-Catholic) expressing my disappointment with the content discussed weekly. I mentioned that maybe the Roman Catholic Church should enlist the help of a consultant to create a content calendar for the year; and my brother politely informed me that Vatican City already employs a group to do so (goes to show how much I know!). I think it’s time for them to re-evaluate their current contracts to possibly bring on a more fruitful partner.
On a separate note, today, the priest goes on to talk about a parishioner that expressed his loss in faith for God/Jesus Christ. Apparently the trials this individual has dealt with were far too challenging to overcome, hence the questioning of his faith.
Without going into further detail, the moral of the story was that this individual was not questioning his faith in God, but rather himself. Without believing in yourself, you start to lose confidence and trust in yourself. Makes sense, right? This idea really resonated with me. I have been making up excuses for my setbacks, when the real reason I’ve been so depressed is because I’ve been getting in my own way to find happiness!
This stuck with me all day today, and has challenged me to think differently in how I’m going to approach my life (but in the more immediate future, my week). I went to the grocery store, bought a bunch of veggies and proteins to start meal prepping for the week. This may seem minute and insignificant to many. The reality is, I’ve been eating so poorly that past few weeks, that I know this reset should only benefit my wellbeing and me.
I’ve decided to dedicate the next 90 days to following a workout and dietary program that I’ve completed in the past. It’s a little scary, but exciting at the same time. Tomorrow is Monday (9/17), the perfect day to start this new chapter. I just need to remind myself that I will make mistakes and to have compassion for them. I also will need plenty of patience.
Wish me luck!